Tuesday, September 30, 2008

雨天 Vs mOmO

今天下了整天的雨。。。。。周围的湿气害我也提不起劲来 T.T。。。不过,我还是和dear到red box去k歌。。。。三个钟过得挺快的。。。。。我还唱不够耶。。。。。不懂为什么,最近都很有唱歌的心情 XD。。。。。一下雨,我就会想要抱momo。。。。可是它不在耶。。。。真的有点想念它。。。。。。


momo是她送给我的。。。。。记得是两年前,她到新加坡比赛的时候买的。。。。有了momo后,我和她之间的距离不知不觉被拉进了。。。。。一不开心,我就会抱着它。。。。想她时,我就会把它抱得更紧。。。算是一种默契吧。。。。当她想念momo的时候,我就会把momo带给她。。。。。

这是两年前拍下的照片。。。。朋友说这张照片很有感觉。。。。我也酱觉得。。。。没有人可以取代momo在我心目中的位子。。。。。就像她一样。。。。她在我心中的地位是不可能被取代的。。。。

Saturday, September 27, 2008

50 dAys L3fT

still left 50 days....only 50 days to go......

my MATHS T, CHEMISTRY, BIOLOGY and PENGAJIAN AM........

yesterday my PA essay distributed ad.....lol.....marks so low....2 essays only get 14 marks....over 50 leh....really gai...previous test i got 30.5 wan ar....this time really bad....really disappointed....but luckily this time not real stpm.....i believe i can do better next time.....i ll study more!!!i must get an A for my pa paper....

recently all of my classmates very hardworking....lol...exam is nearer n nearer....the class was so quiet...nobody talking....rare phenomenon...haha xD....Hemaa was studying biology....Mun Foong doing maths question...Shok Yin reading chemistry...n 4 classmates which are most guai in class sure doing their revision la....everyone so hardworking...how bout me?DOIN NOTHING lo....aiyo...still got someone din mention....our Farah inside kopitiam talking lo....hehe... finally leng ma came in...our chemistry teacher...i was so sleepy that time...almost sleep ki...

another news....finally i lose my weight....aiya....only
1.5kg la....last week i went kopitiam there measure scare tiok me....49.5kg leh....almost 50kg ad....cant blame oso la....previous week keep went out n eat with dear....aiyo....she oso gain weight ad....39.5kg ad...haha....i must lose my weight to 45kg.....really.....kenot eat so much ad....or else really bcum dua pui po toh cham ad...

i really must ga yao err.....my stpm....

n my
WEIGHT!!!



Wednesday, September 24, 2008

24092008

well...today i just had my hair cut....at apex....sungai dua.....aikz.....actually i dun wan to cut my hair ad....coz still left bout two months....but today our skul siao po came in our class n check our hair.....i was da first ppl checked by her....nearly get caught....haha...okie...let me introduce who is siao po...she is one of our skul dicipline teacher....haven married....tat's y la....n y i said her siao....bcoz she keep catching students...any student...especially form6 students....n she was so rude....dun like her!!!arrhh!!!n she was checking upper six classes.....got one class omoz half of da class students kena demerit.....y dun wanna gif ppl chance....form6 ad still got to follow this stupid skul rules.....aikz....tomorrow i somemore got raptai pulak...my hair sure kena wan if i din cut..... okie...bec to my hair....first time i went there n had my hair cut....err....i not very satisfied actually...coz i felt it was quite short....aikz.....but after tat persuaded by my fren...finally i accept it...haha.....^^


about my result....omg....it was bad.....2 science subjects din pass at all....so kesian....i really dunno how m i going to survive in stpm.....n now i still got da time to blogging.....haha....luckily i pass my math....but marks still very low......i really wan to get an A in my math paper.....hmm....i think i have to work hard on it ad.....

Sunday, September 21, 2008

我哭了。。。。



我哭了。。。最终有个理由让我哭了。。。。收了好多天的眼泪。。。终于可以释放出来。。。。对它们来说,它们自由了。。。。也不是第一次了。。。。我以为我会没有任何感觉。。。。我以为我会冷静面对。。。。原来是我太高估我自己了。。。也有太多太多的以为了。。。。看到那些字的那一刹那。。。。我的眼泪就不听使唤的流出来。。。。心在痛。。。。仿佛已经麻木了。。。我可以无条件地付出。。。。不问到底值不值得。。。或许这一切该结束了吧。。。我早该料到会是这样的结果。。。。是我太天真了吗?哭着哭着,不懂是什么时候睡着了。。。半夜醒来,真得很想告诉自己这一切都是梦。。。但是我没有任何理由说服我自己。。。因为这一切是实实在在的发生了。。。。我希望我会好起来。。。。勇敢面对。。。。

Saturday, September 20, 2008

我有话想说。。。。。



最近的我真的有点累,总觉得自己力不从心。。。。是时候开始和时间赛跑了。。。只剩下一个多月的时间,我能够创造奇迹吗??预考成绩真的很糟。。。。是我自甘堕落吗?真的好想大哭一场。。。擦干眼泪后,就抛下所有的顾虑把心全都投入在课业上。。。我终究没有能力说服我自己。。。那懒散的态度。。。我真的腻了!!!我真的想认认真真地对待接下来的每一天。。。我害怕别人对我的眼光。。。。害怕别人对我的冷嘲热讽。。。。还有恶意的批评。。。我总是故作坚强。。。害怕别人看到我脆弱的一面。。。。宁可一个人承担,也不愿麻烦别人。。。有时候甚至觉得自己没用。。。心里往往都在挣扎。。。。其实心里有不少想法,可是常常就是找不到对的人分享。。。朋友的无心伤害,虽然口头上说没事,可是心里就是耿耿于怀。。。我想说,我不是记仇。。。只是很在意别人对我的看法。。。在感情上,我可以毫不保留地付出。。。直到我累了, 感觉没了,就会离开。。。。找不到人依靠的时候,就会想留在自己的世界里。。。我需要精神上的寄托。。。可能是我不善于处理自己情绪的缘故吧。。。。有时候做事干净利落,有时候却犹豫不决。。。有时候很热情,有时候就会很冷淡。。。。。。。这~就是我。。。。。

Monday, September 15, 2008

自由言论

这世上为什么就是有一些无聊人?
不只无聊..
还无知, 无耻...
说话都不经大脑的吗?
亏他的父母还养了她十九年..
她自己不要脸就算了..
但请她不要用在我身上..
因为我和她不一样!!
性格上完全没有一个共同点..
虚伪,说谎,无知,无耻......
这就是她....
竟然编织那么多的谎言...
诋毁我的名声....
拜托...
谁会相信她??!!
她说的话都不值得相信...
请她别那么虚伪无知了...
我算不上是个完美的人....
但至少我的品味比她好....
更何况是她碰过的东西或人我都不会碰....
我也不会从别人身上剥取利益...
占别人便宜...
她曾经说过别人' 嘴贱'....
是问她的言论又有多'贵'呢??
我替她身旁的人感到悲哀...
个个都受到精神上的折磨...
甚至是她以前亲密的人...
站在她身边一秒钟..
我就有快窒息死掉的感觉...
我开始觉得她很可怜...
因身边的朋友一个个离她而去...
像她这种无耻的人...
根本不需要花费我的力气和精神...
我们都是属于品德上流的人...
没有必要和品德下流的人计较...
你们说对吗??