Friday, May 29, 2009

gOodbye uSm

obviously..i din get to go in USM...

well...i m okay with the result...

because i din put much hope on it too...

i will still wait for other uni...

congratulation to those who can enter USM...

lastly...

gOOd luck to me ya...=)

random photo shooting

these are the kids at my centre...
take a look! xD


the left hand side without spec wan is my "son" Keng Min...xD
he accidentally called me mummy that day...lol...
he is smart n brilliant...

but bad tempered sometimes...

the other one is Patrick.. chubby n has very fair skin...


hey...what u guys looking at?
the fatty boy who wears red shirt is Lakesh...
he is indian but chinese-educated...

honestly, i dun like him...(bad teacher)
haha..
he is super slow n talkative..



naughty kids
the front wan is Ong Melven..
new student..


i actually took some pictures v them...
but quite blur...
because the camera girl shaking her hand everytime..
forgive her...she is just a kid...=)

我 需要

12th lonely night...
with my lonely heart...


现在的我很需要依靠


一个温暖的肩膀

一句慰问的话

一个有安全感的拥抱

究竟什么时候开始

我突然渴望这一切

我心里其实很孤单

你知道吗?

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

24052009

10th lonely night...
with my lonely heart...


back to last sunday...
as usual..
i dropped my brother at sg.nibong...
then i went to work at pisa...

honestly...
8.5 hours sitting there alone...
i really dunno how to pass if i din bring my laptop together..
with my laptop,
at least i spent my time on watching...
to avoid thinking something n somebody...
sigh...

in the late afternoon,
i met mr.sim...
he was having his class for upper6
well...he din change much...
still so charming with his smiling...xD
of course i greeted him
but he was busy talking on the phone at that moment..
i miss him...lol....
including his teaching n his jokes sometimes...=)
for me...
he is a "hao hao xian sheng" in my eyes...
good tempered...patient...
without any doubt,
he is a good teacher...
unfortunately..
i m not a good student....xD
i din score well for my chemistry paper..
i did put some effort on my organic chem...
but i still got C+
sigh...

anyway...
i wanna to thank him so much...
because he was willing to help me...
even sms me explained to me about the solutions...


THANK YOU SIR!
hope u stay healthy n happy all the time...=)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

消失




突然间想消失在这个世界

究竟多少人会紧张我

究竟我活着的意义是什么

过生活吗

我想

我又疯了

please stop comparing!!

9th lonely night...
with my lonely heart...

not much to write for this post...
by the way
i m quite down now...
i slept for three hours after i came home...
i supposed to be happy....
unfortunately...
i started emo-ing because of one message..
i hate people comparing...
u should know that...
especially on me...
no matter who is that person compared with..

i dunno why u told me all these..
i m not interested by the way...
everything bout them is none of my business...
i dun wanna to know...
i dun wanna to care too...

i m hy...
the only species with the only DNA structures...
no more second hy in this world...
i wanna to be myself...
n not to follow people's shadow...
do u know that?

please...
dun compare me with others...
i do agree what piang said...
it will make us to hate that person slowly...

Monday, May 25, 2009

my first time(continued)

see..this is my receipt for the paid summons


again..
this is my first time...
i finally paid my summons...lol
i went to the police station just now...
of course nt me this "lu chi" went by myself..haha xD
when i reach there..
there were alot of people queue up to pay summons...
n it was very hot..

again..
i made some funny stuffs...
actually i followed what yunn told me...
she asked me to ask the police see whether can cancel or not

"encik, bolehkah saya potong saman ini?"
"potong? guna gunting kah?"
"err...tak...i want to cancel this summon."
"eh, macam mana boleh cancel pulak?"
"i tak tau i salah apa pun."
"salah parking."
"ooh, tak boleh punya ar...tak apa lah.."
"kena bayar berapa?"
"RM70"
"ooh...okay...thank you"

by da way
i have to pay RM30 only...phew
saved RM40
i dun wan kena summons anymore...
hope this is the last time..haha...

and i wanna to thank the one who be my driver...
cause need to wake up earlier...
thank you!

Friday, May 22, 2009

lonely night

5th lonely night
with my lonely heart....

how are you?

this is the only thing i can say...
i dunno what to say...
dunno what to ask...
n i dunno what to feel.....
perhaps my brain is blank now...

i really hope that everything ll b bec to normal...
but it seems like impossible
perhaps da situation can be changed?
i have no idea at all....
i lose my confidence....
n my feelings too.........

舍不得


第一次你陪我坐着

我的手心是空空的
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏著
还怕我难过
不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了
我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的 有你牵著我的那些日子
真的好快乐

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
没有我你要好好的
我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我..走..了..



我反复听着这首歌好多次
强烈的感觉一直涌上我心头
我想说
我是真的舍不得......

Thursday, May 21, 2009

第一次

哎哟

我的第一次就这样结束了

我也糊里糊涂 懵懵懂懂的

就酱失去了我的“第一次”

唉 =/

警察先生 为什么你不给我个机会呢??

我只不过到广场去办点事

况且那里也有很多车停泊着啊...

你就开了张罚单给我

真无情耶 T.T


Monday, May 18, 2009

女头家~高曼华


“女头家” 这部本地戏剧终于也都播完了
这部戏真的很有意思
播放期间
我们整家人都看得“津津有味”的

而我 也很幸运的
遇到了饰演高家大女儿~高曼华
她就是mandy陈诗莹
mandy是从台湾来马来西亚发展的艺人
遇到她的那天 她很亲切
还跟我们一起合照
原来她是在拍戏空档当她男朋友的助理
当时我还以为我认错人了
隔天 我还特地买了个小皮萨給她
她的脸都红了 哈哈 xD


18052009

一段感情究竟是用什么来衡量的?
亲情 爱情 甚至友情
为什么它们有时候就会变得很渺小?
我真的很好奇
为什么感情总是得来不易
然而它却在一瞬间从你指尖悄悄地溜走
这世上真的会有真爱吗?

幸运之神会眷顾我吗?
我的梦想会成真吗?
而我想要的有可以得到吗?
上天究竟赐給了我什么天赋
怎么我又开始觉得我一无是处
还是说我不知足?

幸福的家?
真挚的友情?
还是人人眷恋的爱情?
我不懂
真的不懂

很多时候
很多事情都由不得我去选择
倘若有的选择
我不会选择过酱的生活
偏偏
我却无从选择
这就是我的fate

我又开始“陷入低潮”了
我又开始胡思乱想了
我 又 疯 了
天使和恶魔再次缠着我
我又什么时候才可以逃脱呢?

我不是一直都想要靠自己吗?
我不是一直都想要幸福快乐吗?
我不是一直都想要证明自己不是一无是处吗?

很烦耶
我 还有能力去承担吗?

Friday, May 15, 2009

1st post of may

今年的第五个月又过了一半
我也不懂病了几回
我也很久没上来这里了

又被病魔缠身了
很累 很辛苦
那讨人厌的鼻涕和痰
把我折磨得死去活来
我好讨厌生病
真希望赶快好起来

生活上
除了工作 还是工作
抱病工作 真的很辛苦
我真的很怀念上课的生活
很想念 很想念

面对那些小孩子
我除了无言 还是无言
加上生病
根本没有多余的力气管教他们
想对他们说:你们好自为之吧


祝我:
早日康复
永远快乐