给你的话

你告诉我
有人取代了你在我心目中的地位
我变得愈来愈不懂你的感受
不晓得你要些什么
你说 你再也容不进我的世界
我开始变得很陌生

我想让你知道
一直以来 你在我心目中的份量我比谁都懂
或许你开始迷惑了
你也失去你原本拥有的信心
有时候我是真的不懂你要些什么
我承认 我也很固执

想想
好久好久没和你好好说话了
我很enjoy和你互聊心事的时候
我们无所不谈
我有时候是迟钝了些
不懂得你要表达些什么
我也不是要把我的世界给封闭起来
我也希望得到关怀

你说过
假如一天你迷失了自己
你希望我把你带回来
牵着你一起走下去
我从来都没有忘记你说的
即使你曾经是怎么迷失了自己
我不是原谅了你
把你给带回来吗?

刚刚
以往的回忆又浮现在我脑海里
曾经是多么熟悉的地方
我再次踏入
给了我很多了感触
我发现
我还是很珍惜...

你曾说过
就算朋友再多 也无法了解你心里的寂寞
你说我是最了解你的那一位
我想问
现在还是吗?

trust me
although the life is tough and challenging
i will never forget what i have promise you
hope you sleep well tonight
may God bless you...
take care & hugs...^^

19042009

我病了
而且是患上感冒和伤风
讨厌 =/

昨天
我遇到了个野蛮人
他是pcfair的security
当时我正在值班
看见他捄这一位学生的衣服
还直骂那学生bodoh
我都傻了眼
至于发生什么事
我也懒得写了
只觉得
怎么会有酱蛮不讲理的人

是你没把你的本份做好
还来怪人
你有没有问题
我和他吵了起来

you are the one who should be responsible...
not us...
the outsiders come in through here not my business..
i m just a clerk here..
how come you ask me do your job...
you should block those outsiders come in from here...
not me...
i m not security guard...
but is you!!
and you should not scold the boy...
he dunno anything...

现在想起
我还是会气
很无奈
那时候他还想出手打那位学生
最后我把bk keng 给叫了出来
连bk keng 这位好好老师都忍不住发火

怎么这世上就有酱蛮横的人呢
唉.....

18042009

guess...why m i still awake?lol...
not insomia...
but just woke up from sleep...xD
damn tired whole day....
thought saturday i would have more free time...
but nope!!
i went for munsyi test at usm this morning...
n i nearly late..v chee hong..
because he took da wrong way at first...haha
310 question in one hour...
it's just like omg....
my hand keep working n working...

afternoon...
i had my tuition class for jonathan n chee ying...
until 6.30pm...half day passed...phew..
after that..i attended a birthday party for my neighbour's baby...
hmm...he is cute by da way....^^
the conclusion for this party was:i gain my weight again!!!=/
due to the tiredness...i broke my record....haha
i went sleep at 9pm...wow....unbelievable rite?

and i got a news which disappointed me alot in da late afternoon..
penang prefects' footdrill competition 2009...
peng hwa got 4th for basic..3rd for formation....
i really wondered why they got such result...
mayb i shouldnt say much...
but i had participate this competition before...
we put much effort on it...
n...we got 1st n 2nd for basic...
1st for formation n overall champion...
seniors keep maintain da trophy...
but u all lost it...really disappointed le...
from joining prefects board until last year...
i actually felt that our marching is da best....
i proud of our prefects' marching...
but now...i change my mind....
it's not da best anymore...
it replaced by chungling,union n etc...
speechless....=/

i m dilemma-ing by da way...
going to buy laptop soon...
but having difficulties choosing a good laptop
lol...pc fair ll b finish 2ml...
i still cant make a decision yet...
hp?toshiba?asus?
i need help!!!

i missed my modeling audition today...=/
i will b participating next season...
trust me..i ll go for it...=)

发泄

今晚又处于“不正常”的状态 =/
怎么最近的我酱反常?

拜托一下好不好
既然事情都已经发生了
都已经是事实了
还能弥补些什么呢
我最多也只上一次当
难不成还会被同样的事情被骗第二次吗
就当我买个教训
怎么就是有诸多意见

够了
真的够了
我也受够了

我只想拥有一天的好心情
有酱困难吗

怀念我的笑容
最近都被偷走了
我不想变个冷漠无情的人

饶了我，好吗?

seriously

i m missing you right now
do you know
i guess u dont know

终于....

终于
我的心情平复了
有时候我的脾气很怪 也很坏
不是很多人都忍受得了
就连我自己有时候也受不了

他曾说
他可以忍受
是酱的吗?

还好
我又变回正常了 =)

发牢骚

又上来这里发牢骚了
这不能全都怪我
有些事情和人把我给惹了
况且这是我的部落格
我爱写什么 爱埋怨什么
都不干任何人的事
我只是想抒发我的情绪而已

人 往往心中都藏着些不满吧
说出来 可能会伤了和气
不说 自己又没办法承受
很矛盾对吧
这世上有太多矛盾的事情了
数都数不清
常觉得这世界欠缺公平
为什么人往往会受到不公平的待遇
还是我太悲观了呢?

有时候你会被假象包围着
而你身在其中
却什么也感受不到
对于那些美丽的谎言
你又怎么看待呢?

我讨厌受到不公平的对待
也不喜欢别人对我的所作所为有任何意见
更不喜欢受到任何束缚
我不说
不表示我认同
我不是我行我素
只是我有自己的立场
只要我认为是对的
我都会去做
有时候的我是固执的
我不否认

我是我
在这世上独一无二的我
我想做些什么是我的自由
只要我没触犯任何法律就好啦
我知道我的生活该怎么过
我若错了 我会改
我不需要任何质疑的眼光

should i give it a try??

should i give it a try??

i m still thinking....

i need some time to think about it...

actually i dont have much confidence...

seriously..i m thinking now....


18 of april...

should i go?

modeling contest at gurney plaza

02042009

nothing special today...
but still wanna write something here...

i m bored perhaps....
can anyone just talk to me??lolx...

life passes everyday...
and yet...
my life seems like meaningless...
just full of working...
working working n working...
n i m tired...

suddenly miss my school life so much....
my beloved frens...teachers...
and also U6SE!!!
but surely not peng hwa n three of them....lolx...
i wish the time could flow backwards...

i miss my school life lots!!!

midnight post

April Fool finally passed...

Looking backwards...
when we were small...
we tried to fool each other on this day...
so..same for the kids nowadays...
I got fooled by them!!lolx..
hmmpp...those gals really naughty...xD

again...with my 'sexy' voice....
scolded them nonstop....
peace for few seconds....
then bec to normal again...lolx..
n with their very 'nice' writting..
i suffered one more time....T.T

finally...
i got my march payment...
aikz....damn little...
no allowance...T.T
cause i din work for full month...

i went cheng beng at sg petani this morning...
with my dad...only two of us...
the weather damn hot...
sweat trickled down all the time..
n now my skin become darker ad...

n now...
somebody is waiting i finish blogging...
i wonder y he so interested to my blog...lolx...
he said he wanna read my mind..hehe
hey man...
u thought u can simply catch what i m thinking...haha
if u can do it...then i m not hy ad..lolx...

p/s: just kidding...dun take it serious k?

that's the ending for this post...
wanna sleep with dai dai ad...
nitez again everyone...^^

010409~April Fool

WOW...unbelievable...
i m still awake...xD
thought i ll be sleep all night long...

later have to follow my dad go 'cheng beng' somemore..
at sungai petani...so far..lol...
i just slept for 2 hours after i came bec from work...
and now...i m energetic..hahax..

it was a tiring day...
those kids really make me frustrated...T.T
i wonder why they cant listen to me...
have to cane them somemore....lol...
and i was getting moody once i felt sleepy...
my sisters already get used to my weird temper..
they wont b kacauing me while i m in bad mood...lol...
cause i ll b scolding them like a mad person..

unfortunately...i din get my salary yet..
i want to go for shopping so badly...=)

01 April~April Fool
hope that i wont b fooled by those kids...
or else....they ll be kena la...hahaha..
i wont let them bully me so easily...lolx...
Patrick...dun try to trick me ya..^^

hmm...that's all for this post...
wanna go to bed d...
nitez everyone...